All the labour of man is for his mouth, and yet the soul is not filled. The Book of Ecclesiastes.

Your soul is calling you. 
You've been seeking the reason and meaning of your life for many decades and it boils down to Self.
Self is made into a dirty 4 letter word.
Yet, everyone is seeking their Self.
Some people wrote about their lessons others didn't.
When wading out of all that, the Soul is what's left, still, very still, still inside you, still waiting to be heard.